THIS DUMB FUCKING WORLD

I look around in utter despair and sorrow. The world is full of stupid, dumb and ignorant heads. Einstein was right. There is no limit to human stupidity. Most of the people around me prove him right every single day. This is going to be a long rant. This is going to hurt you ( if you are stupid). This is world as i view from my vantage point. The sheer lack of knowledge and moral values in people is alarming. The rabbit hole of ignorance and selfishness blossoms piercing millions of innocent hearts and learned minds everyday. This madness needs to be stopped. This plethora of stupidity will otherwise drive people like me crazy who long for logic in everything that happens.

In my view, three things play role in the overall product of your personality.
1- KNOWLEDGE
2- EXPERIENCES
3- ENVIRONMENT.
Lets start with knowledge. The stupid reptiles i am talking about have never read a book in their lives. Their knowledge of life is shallow at best. When they gathered enough discipline to complete a book they turned to novels written by more stupid people who somehow learnt to articulate words into sentences, They have never watched a TED talk. They believe Newton "invented" gravity. They skip discovery channel faster than they change their sex partners. The only use of a newspaper that they know is to wipe their asses. They do not ask questions. They settle for what they know. They never had any moral education. They think that they can do whatever pleases them. Their panorama of thoughts is so constrained that anything a wise man speaks is pure bullocks to them. They live and die in a pithole of ignorance, hatred and jealousy. They cannot stand anyone knowing more than them. They do not appreciate true wisdom. They think philosophy is for the hippies. They believe psychology is a hoax. They have zero respect for anybody.
When i am conversing with them, i feel like i am talking to a rock. They try to win arguments by logic more stupid than them. They think raising the tone of their voice can win them arguments.  Its better to keep quiet and let people think that you are stupid than to open your mouth and prove them right. They dont get this quote at all. Deep conversations are far from their horizons of intellect. They cannot appreciate art or beauty. They think people who think about life are psychos.

Experiences mould your soul. I really wonder about the life experiences of these shitheads which turned them into such pity assholes. I feel sorry for them. I wish life had been fair to them. I wish they had learnt from their experiences. When i see someone not learning from his mistakes, i believe he/she deserves whatever has befallen them. They seek pleasurable experiences. They do not want to work hard and experience an ounce of pain. They look for short term fixes. They are worshipers of the now. They sacrifice their future and present worshiping gods of the days gone by. Dude life was not fair to you. But atleast try to change what has happened to you.

I have seen that a stupid person is never alone. He has a pack of similar minded souls that are no better than a herd of sheep. And this unity of stupidity is the strongest bond I have ever seen. They are ready to do anything to prove their point. They try to threaten the existence of the wise. They somehow believe that the differently opiniated are their enemies. They do not have the balls to handle criticism. The herd mentality knows no bounds. They surround themselves with stupidity. They surround themselves with like minded stupid people who reinforce their false beliefs. Their environment is something i could not imagine surviving in for a minute.

By all this, i dont mean that everyone is stupid. I have met people who have knowledge, values and personality, people who are capable of entertaining different thoughts and ponder the meaning of life. I also dont mean that I am this wise Buddha who has it all figured out and knows better than everyone else.

It just pains my heart that the one who just read an essay by Bertrand Russell, critiqued it in his spare time, read Einstein's biography on breakfast, tried to decipher THE INCEPTION while he was taking a dump, wrote on the philosophy of life when he was just 14 has to go and face this myriad of stupidity every single day. If only you could view and understand this world from my vantage point, you would feel the pain. I am a work in progress. I still have millions of books to read. I have miles to go before i sleep. It just soothes my heart that instead of gathering a herd of friends, i gathered a library of books. My parents taught me moral values better than any religious guru could ever teach. I plan to embark on this lifelong journey of wisdom and excellence. And maybe someday when i achieve enlightenment, your stupidity will stop bothering me. I am just waiting for that day. 

REMINDER

DATE- 2030 **,**,****DAY, **:** AM/PM 

PLACE - Stockholm, Sweden

BACK TO THE FUTURE . 

I love you..

I Love You !
Three words that encapsulate the entire universe of emotions. There cannot be any other feeling with a larger diameter. This is to my love. You deserve to know. You deserve to be sugar-coated with these beautiful words. The world needs to know about our story. This universe must enchant ballads of our story till eternity and beyond.
I fell in love with you the first time I saw you. It was a cold morning. There was a mixture of anxiety and excitement in the air. I was waiting for you. AND suddenly out of thin air, you arrived. Like a cold breeze that pierces your heart, you moved me! I was dumbfounded. You just looked like a carving on a celestial stone by god. You are the most beautiful thing that my eyes have ever experienced. Your face was lightened by the innocence that drains your heart. Your smile drenched with the playfulness of a child, the child I hope to have with you in the future. Your curves were something from fantasy. You were everything I ever wanted in a woman concentrated into a lovable little package.
The first touch of your hands on that first journey was filled with nervous joy and shyness. Do you remember how firm our grip was? It was a prayer to the universe to never let the grip loosen on either sides.  The first kiss was as good as it gets. It was not messy. It felt like Plato's separated souls had met in real life. I didn’t know bliss could be hidden in the nectar of someone else's lips. Our story started writing its own pages. The eternal talks on the phone, meeting at dark escaping everyone's eyes, laughing, making fun of whoever we choose, short journeys on the bus and what not !
Time then took a toll on us. After being drawn close like two opposite charges, we were bombarded apart by an unfortunate bang. I want to tell you that even when I was not with you, I always wanted to be with you. I learnt how to put on a fake smile and go on with the hibbie- jibbies of life. I smiled in public and wet myself in tears in solitude. It was painful, the pain that cannot be described in words or poems or songs or anything.
Then we met again, maybe after a year or so. It was the time when I realized that we were really meant to be. We were meeting after such a long time but it felt like nothing had changed. All the hate, anger, disappointments, tragedy evaporated in thin air when I saw you. Every cell of my body melted in your presence. It was like you were never gone. It was like we had just met yesterday. I missed your smell so much…..I missed everything about you. Now I had you again. I just couldn’t let to go AGAIN!
Here we are today, truly, deeply and madly in love. We have certainly come a long way. I have been addicted to you. I have been habituated to your habits. I speak your slangs and listen on repeat  the songs which were once your favorite music. I can go for hours listening to your meaningless jibber-jabbers and after surviving your typical angry rants, I feel I can just hug you for a second and make everything alright. You have brought the best in me. I was a difficult, spoilt man! It takes a woman of character and patience to hold on to an unstable plank like me in the storm of life. But you held on and I held onto you. WE held on when letting go was probably easier or maybe even logical. Love has nothing to do with logic. It's all about feeling the bliss this universe has to offer. I view our relationship as our love-child. There is no way we both could risk our child for anything else…
TO love and to be loved is the best feeling. We both are blessed with each other. This is all we need. I have not seen the future but I do not wish a future without you. I do not wish a future that offers us eternity of togetherness filled with love that has no spark, instead I wish a future with a second full of the love that we enjoy today because in that blissful second we will have lived our eternity dear. Death might certainly separate us one day but I promise you, I will leave you with memories that will fill your eyes with tears of joys and happiness. WHO will be the first to go? I wish it's me. I just cannot fathom a universe without you. One more selfish choice that I want to make as I go…..Are you upset? I wish we live and die together because even death would be a blissful experience if you are holding my hands like you did the first day we met…..!

Nobody will remember this, or our story. It's more important to live than to be remembered. Our gossips, laughs, fights, tears and love will melt into the abyss of time. But what we have will always be with us, you and me. This will be our story. THIs will be our life. This will be our love. When we grow old and maybe m romantic self will be too tired to write you these words again, I will have no regrets because I will have spent a lifetime in service of your joy and fulfillment by then.

This is a testimony to our young, wild, free and deep emotions…. We will last the test of time and love beyond the measurements of time….
To infinity and beyond,
To eternity and beyond
I LOVE YOU !

The Universal God

God is the greatest contradiction in the universe. He is but he isn’t. He is perpetual and infinite and omnipresent still inaccessible. He is the king of this kingdom but still it seems e has left his great land on autopilot.
I am not going to go into what god is? My singleton views on what God must be like carries little value to anyone else because god is a concept that builds within us one contradiction at a time. The first question that comes to life and stares a hole through my heart every time I question god is existence. "Existence" of this universe is a slap in the face of anyone that questions god.  There must be an action for a reaction to exist. This ever-expanding universe is the proof that an action exists or a force that has the power to materialize the action exists.
Let me talk about two contrasting generalizations on god. One is the individual god and the other is neither single nor whole, he is just there. Individual gods maybe Christ, Buddha, Brahma, BIshnu,Maheswor and the list goes on. Individual god has an individual identity. He seems like a refined version of us. He has his own herculean myths and mesmerizing stories of divine grace and power. He seems to take care of the individual particle as an individual. Buddhists think they are under the mercy of Lord Buddha. We Hindus think our knowledge is under the mercy of Saraswati, our wealth is under the influence of Laxmi. Basically, every aspect of our lives is under control or influence of an individual god and at all times. Given that god is a hyper-intelligent superbly powerful individual, I don’t think even he could handle the data traffic from every particle in this universe. My greatest objection against the individual god is the sheer volume of data that he must process and control every second. This is also the reason I believe I have freewill and no such thing as fate exists.





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Let's consider this box as our entire universe and the dots and commas as the particles inside this universe. Do you seriously think god concerns himself with how each particle of the universe, infinite of them, every moment? I don’t know the answers to the question where did the box come from or what makes the particle behave as they do. I just don’t think god controls minute details of the universe like an individual god. Yes because of lack of understanding of underlying science, I am bound to accept that god created the box but I just cannot fathom him controlling everything that happens inside it.

That is the reason I believe in Einstein. Don’t be falsely alarmed, Einstein is not my god. I believe in his concept of cosmic religiousness. There is no individual god that concerns himself with all the random shit going on throughout the universe. But we cannot deny the presence of a universal god that set everything in motion. HE created this. He set the particles inside the box in motion and with time a pattern developed. The particles started vibrating at a certain frequency feeding off the enormous energy present inside the box. Through evolution of particles, life was formed and through evolution of life, humans whirled into existence. Every pattern that we now see in this universe occurred because of the properties of the particles. Yes god designed those particles but he didn’t design the building. All physical laws exist because with time certain particles started behaving in a certain way. God just laid three bricks: time, space and energy. Everything else after that is the evolution of patterns in a random universe.
Yes I believe in that god. That god is everywhere in this universe without the compulsion to control everything. He just watches as patterns and entropy develops. The more the patterns develop, the more complicated this universe becomes, its entropy rises and one day the box will explode with another big bang or just get dissolved within itself leaving nothing. If this universe came out of nothing, it is plausible to think it will vanish into nothing. And the cycle repeats. God's next experiment begins.