Where do I start love? It has been an amazing ride.I feel like I have spent an entire lifetime with you.These years have passed in a jiffy.The journey matters much more than the destination.We didn't reach our destination but I assure you this short journey of ours was the best journey of our lives.
I was a kid when I met you.you turned me into a man.I was a man who had given up on love. People before you hurt me baby, they broke me down, they laughed at my gullibility, they scarred my heart.My ability to love had been severely impoverished.then I met you.I realized that even a broken man can love again.I realized that a real woman can heal a severed heart.I realized that moments can compensate for past trauma.you healed me.I was reborn under your wings.you have such a pure and honest soul.I really haven't met anyone who is so damn pure and authentic.your ability to give is your superpower.you have given me so much. You repaired my soul. You became my soul.
The type of love that you showered over me is one for the movies,for the ballads,a dream come true for a hopeless romantic like me. You fulfilled my wish to be loved.I experienced the feeling of being loved with everything that someone has to offer because of you.I didn't deserve it.I wasn't the easiest person to love.I wasn't living up to your expectations.yet, you kept on giving. You were an angel, an incarnation of god.Even god finds me unlovable at times but you loved me even when I was the greatest asshole on this planet."Unconditional" is the word."Infinite" is the word.your love for me is the highest form of dedication that I have seen in my entire life.you put me on a pedestal.you worshipped me.Noone will ever love me like you did because its just not possible to give yourself completely to another person.it was your superpower.Sadly, there is only one you.Your love cannot be replicated in any form.
I am a flawed human being.I should have been a better lover, a better human being.I should have treated you well.You deserved so much better than me.I was lost in a world of dopamine hits.I was addicted.My addiction pushed you away from me.I could never have the guts to push you away.however, an addicted brain is the highest form of evil that exists.Your love changed everything in me except the hardwired neural networks of my addictions. We live in a world full of poison.I was poisoned by society.You loved me like a pet but I turned my back on you like a predator.I became a monster.I couldn't tame my monster.I want you to know that I tried really hard.I want you to know that I struggled a lot.I want you to know that I tried to change every single day, just for you.I tried.I didn't give up.I was forced to forfeit. I would never give up on you.
I have been with many women.Noone even comes close to you.its a no contest.you are the best woman that I will ever meet.I have been lured plenty of times by pretty faces,"gotta-have-those" boobs, intelligent minds and thick thighs.But no one has ever lured me with love except you.You were the one.
my heart weeps remembering how we desperately tried to hold on to each other.While most would have just quit, we held on.We lost the fight but we fought a valiant battle.We were together in this.We knew we were going to lose but we held on until the universe itself had to intervene.
Memories are going to be tough from now on.And we have infinite storage of it.I wish I could remember the intricate details of every moment spent with you.I would spend half of my life replaying them in my head.The smile, the hugs, the cuddles, the sex, the fights, the first night together, the first date, the letters, the gifts, the conversations, the hopeful plans of the future, the anger, the tears,the food, the smell of your hair, the habits, the places, the things, the people, the times......I have everything in my head and I will keep it there until the day I die.
I don't know what the future holds for us.I don't know how I will feel the next time I see you ! I may be in love with someone else.I may have already fallen out of love with you by then.You will also be with someone else.you will marry someone else, be happy with him, share your tears with him, have kids with him and build a family with him.He will love you. He will care for you and protect you. He will hold your hands when you are giving birth to your child.He will hug you and cry with you when your loved ones die.He will cook for you.He will make you feel special. He will repair things that I have broken.he will proudly say that you are his.he will see you grow old.he will see you lose your skin vitality.He will take care of you when you are sick.He will travel with you.He will take you to your favourite places. He will love you everyday.he will smell you everyday.He will sleep with you and wake up in your arms everyday. I wish.....I wish I was him.
The agony of this realization that it won't be me will always eat me up inside.it should have been me. It could have been me.but its someone else.you are not mine anymore.you are someone else`s.maybe you always were love.that's why the universe took you away from me.
I wish you all the best for your future.you might be broken right now but the universe will heal you in a spectacular fashion. You will find the love and happiness you deserve.you will forget me faster than you think.maybe you will forget me completely.maybe you will hate me for the rest of your life.you have every reason to hate me but I don't even deserve to be in your memories.I wish you forget me like a bad dream.
I am not a bad person.I loved you with genuine intent and commitment.I have no complaints.I will always be thankful for the type of love and commitment that you have shown.
I can't even cry anymore.Acceptance of defeat liberates you from its clutches.I am a non living thing writing words from distant memories of life that you gave me.I will never achieve closure with you.I always have something more to say to you.I won't be able to do so anymore. This is the finale. There is no going back.The linear progression of time is a curse.
take care of yourself love. Heal yourself. Prepare yourself for life.live your dreams.make your parents proud.Fall in love again.Find joy in life again.I am leaving you.I am taking all your pain and suffering away from you.I am liberating you.Fly away little bird.I will be rooting for you from the grasslands.I wish you good health and happiness.If we meet someday, I want to talk about our times with fond ecstasy.I will miss you each and every day of my life.You are a neural network that cannot be unwired from my brain.You will always be here with me.I may not see you ever again but I will always play your image in my head every night before I go to sleep.
If given the chance, I would do this again with you. It was worth it at the end love.you were worth the pain.if we meet in our next life, I want us to last.I want us to build a life together.I want us to fix what we couldn't in this life. Promise me !
When you will go away from me, I will lose a big chunk of me but a part of you will always be with me.I love you !
